Well that was fun

So today I had to start my all clear liquids diet in preparation for my surgery tomorrow, so not cool. I’ m telling you what, when I had dinner last night I was mad just thinking of  how hungry I thought I’d be today, lol. I left work at 2:00 pm and took my 4 Dulcolax on the way home then started the Miralax with 8 oz of Lemonade/Gatorade an hour later then again every 10 minutes until the bottle was finished…..I literally had to set an alarm. 8 oz of liquid every 10 minutes is a lot of liquids! By about the 5th round I became uncomfortably full, then started spending some QT with my toilet. Around 5pm I finished the whole bottle of Miralax. All in all it wasn’t so bad. The Miralax mixed great with the lemonade/Gatorade and I couldn’t taste it at all. I was really dreading the liquid diet, but it wasn’t so bad either….started my day with a cup of black coffee (worst part of the diet bc I’m addicted to flavored creamer), had a ginger ale around 10, then at noon I had chicken broth and jello. Don’t get me wrong, I was definitely hungry…..but once I started the bowel prep food was the last thing on my mind! Just laying in bed now trying to relax watching Netflix in between urgent trips to the bathroom.

In other news I found out R has been smoking again and lying to me about it. I found a cigarette butt in the toilet Saturday and confronted him about it. He said he started back 2-3 weeks ago and has had 2-3 packs since. He said I was putting too much pressure on him, and he really wanted to lose some weight. He’s a tall thin man, but since he started taking Clomid in September then quit smoking in October he’s put on a good 30 lbs. It’s really hard to say whether it was the Clomid, the quitting smoking, or some combination of the two, but I’ve read of rapid weight gain being a symptom for men on Clomid. We both agreed that it was time for him to stop taking it. His count wasn’t any better at the last SA so I really don’t think it was helping anyway. I’m really bummed he’s back on the ciggs, but what can you do? I can’t be too mad at him, he was a smoker when we met….hell, we both were! I really was hoping that he would stay quit though, I was wondering if it might help make a difference in his sperm count for our next treatments, plus I won’t want him to be smoking when we have a baby either. Maybe after I’m pregnant that’ll be the final push that helps him to stop? Who knows, I need to stop worrying about it…..it’s out of my control.

Tomorrow is the big day, hoping everything goes smoothly….I’ll update as soon as I can!