Chemical pregnancy

Okay, so I have a lot to catch you guys up on. The last I blogged about was on Monday (15dpiui), I had my IUI #4 follow up (which was negative) I told my RE about our plans to take a break for the summer from fertility treatments. I stopped taking my progesterone suppositories (Saturday) and that was that. Well by Thursday I still hadn’t started my period, which was unusual because it always comes 2-3 days after I stop taking the progesterone. I decided to take a HPT that night, just an internet cheapie, and it was a faint positive.

I kind of freaked out, wondering what that meant at 18dpiui to be getting a faint positive. So I decided I would try and hold my urine for as long as possible that night and test again in the morning, I only lasted until about 4:00 am, lol. I took 3 more tests, Clear Blue digital, First Response Early Result, and another internet cheapie…..all positive, but still faint. I called my RE’s office that morning. They wanted me to come in for a HCG beta test that day. They said it wasn’t necessarily a bad thing to be getting a late positive. So that morning (19dpiui) I went in for blood work and my HCG was 42, progesterone 10.95….I was pregnant! But it seemed awful low for 19dpiui to me, based on everything I had read. I thought, well maybe I just had a late implanter?? That happens right?? I went about my day, all the while thinking I was pregnant….and I just got so excited. My husband was excited too, but he just seemed so skeptical. They wanted me to do a repeat beta today (48 hours later). HCG should double every 48 hours in pregnancy, well today my hcg was 24. I didn’t actually have an appointment today, because my doctor’s office is closed….so I didn’t actually talk with my doctor or a nurse….but I know what this means. I’m having a miscarriage, a chemical pregnancy. I’ll go in for more blood work on Tuesday, and my numbers should be even lower. It takes a while for the HCG to actually leave your system.

The fucked up thing is that I was “okay” with taking a break. I felt like it would be really good for us, I was going to lose some weight, we were going to have some fun this summer. Then Thursday my world was turned upside down. I was SO EXCITED to finally be pregnant, and despite everything I was reading about low beta’s at this stage in the game I was still very positive. Then after getting today’s results I’m just devastated.

I guess the positive from this situation is knowing that this protocol CAN work for us. So there you have it, I DID get pregnant from IUI #4, it just didn’t work out. Say a little prayer for us please, it has all happened so quickly and we haven’t even really had time to process it!

I think now, more than ever, we really need this break…so we’re going back to our original plan of breaking for the summer and resuming treatment in September.