I’m actually doing pretty good.
After finding out about our chemical pregnancy I was pretty devastated (we both were). I had allowed myself to get excited and be happy for a few days then before I knew it everything had ended, but I’m doing much better now. I’m also starting to feel much better now that my anti-depressants are starting to do their job, and I don’t feel a bit guilty about taking a Xanax at night sometimes if I feel I need one. I’ve been working out regularly, and eating better (for the most part), trying to tackle my depression in the most healthy way possible. It would be much easier to curl up in bed with mint chocolate chip ice cream (wow that sounds amazing right now) and mope but I’m trying to make the most of things, and I’m doing the best that I can.
R & I have decided to still take June & July off from fertility treatments to enjoy the summer, lose a bit of weight, and just recharge. We’ll move forward with IUI #5 in August (which means I’ll order my meds in July to make sure they’re here on time).
For those of you who have reached out and been there for me these past few weeks it means so much…..thank you. I know it can be an uncomfortable situation (especially if you’ve never experienced a miscarriage), and sometimes people don’t know how to act….but the best thing you can do is just be there for me and ask me how I am.
That’s all, just wanted to update those that were curious how I was feeling. I hope all of you are doing well too!