I had another check-up today, they took more blood (my poor arms) and did another ultrasound. My HCG is finally dropping like it should (it was 513 today), so it looks like I will be able to avoid another methotraxate shot or any type of surgery…..excellent news. Also, my ultrasound was perfect, but when my RE told me we were just about through this and we were going to take a month off then finally get me pregnant again I burst into tears. I didn’t have the heart to mention anything to him today about us quitting, and there’s really no point at this time anyway because I hope and pray that my husband changes his mind. I just said thank you and left his office crying all the way to my car. It literally makes my heart hurt at the thought of not trying again…..I just feel like we are SO CLOSE!!!!!!!!! I have to go back in for more blood work on Thursday.
At my RE’s office I’ve had my own “personal nurse” from the very start. She’s such a sweetheart, and it’s nice having ONE go-to person for questions and such. She’s a petite little thing, and I could have sworn I saw a baby bump on her today…..then I overheard someone congratulate her. It broke my heart. Of course she’s allowed to have children, and I’m happy for her…but being a RE nurse I just felt like her “situation” will likely be hard for a lot of her patients. Ahh the irony of it all.
**Sorry for such a whiny post, just trying to keep it real…..and this is just the type of day I’m having today.