Feeling much more hopeful today

Today we had our IUI#2 follow up appointment. If it had worked today would have been our first beta test, but since it didn’t we just met with our RE in his office. R came with me today, and I’m really glad he did. I feel like today was the most thorough conversation we’ve ever had with our RE. He suggested we move onto IUI with injectables or IVF. Since we switched insurance, and as soon as our deductible has been met (not too much longer) 70% of IUI’s will be paid for we’ve decided to stick with our original plan of several more IUI’s before considering alternative options. When the RE started going into the risks of triplets or more with injectables could feel R’s anxiety. He was literally squirming in his seat, lol. Continue reading

Always the Aunt

IUI #2 didn’t work. I tried so hard not to get my hopes up this cycle, but that didn’t work out too well. I had my crying breakdown this morning after another BFN at 13dpiui. We’re visiting my sister and her family this weekend and was really hoping to be able to share some good news with them. I slept with my four year old nephew Colin last night. He’s such a snuggler, I love it! After my BFN I got back in bed, and holding his little hand I had the awful thought, “what if this is all I get, what if I only get to be an aunt”, and that really broke me down. Continue reading

10DPIUI is the worst day of the 2WW!

In my maddened state of Googling possible “symptoms” today I came across this blog post and I just had to share, she captured my feelings (as well as many TTC’ers I’m sure) so well, lol.

I know I’m crazy. Being 10dpiui does that to a person.

I must not be alone on this one, because one of my most viewed posts to this day, was 10DPO, and I’ve gone mad! There must be others out there who think this day just totally sucks. I’m going to go out on a limb and say that in my opinion, 10 days into the TWW is the worst day of the whole TWW. Continue reading

Half way through the 2WW!

Today I’m 7dpiui & 9 days past trigger. Still too early to find out if this IUI worked, but I just wanted to give a mid-2WW update. I thought since this was my second IUI that I might be a little calmer on this 2WW, well I was wrong. I don’t know why I can’t seem to relax and/or stay off of Google. THERE IS NOTHING NEW OUT THERE I HAVEN’T ALREADY READ, and yet I continue to read anything I can get my hands on.

I’m THAT crazy lady that likes to start testing (using internet cheapies) the day after her IUI. I like to know when the trigger leaves my system so in case I decide to test earlier than the suggested 14DPIUI I will know if the test is reliable. **For those of you not in the TTC/Infertility world, the HCG trigger shot that I had to have 36 hours before my IUI gives me positive HPT’s for several days because it’s the same hormone that is read by HPT’s. Each day the test line should get lighter and lighter….but in pregnancy the test line will get darker and darker (because of the increased levels of HCG in your system). So now that I’ve gotten a stark white negative HPT if/when my second line comes back it’s the real deal! 🙂 Continue reading

One per vagina

We’re now in our 16th cycle of TTC, gosh I can’t believe it’s been that long! We had our second IUI today and I’m feeling pretty hopeful, 6 million sperm post-wash. Not super thrilled with that number, but it’s enough to do the job! I pray that it works! They say anything above 5 million is worth doing the IUI. Now onto the hardest part of TTC, the 2WW! Hoping the time will fly by and I’m rewarded with wonderful news at the end! Continue reading

Trigger shot in the middle of the night

I’ve never been crazy about giving myself my HCG trigger shots (I’m sure I’m not alone there) but when I found out for this IUI I would need to do it at 1:30 am I kind of freaked out more than last time. Because at that time of the night I couldn’t just drive down to my friends house and have her do it for me…..there would be no chickening out this time. We have friends visiting this weekend, and my girlfriend Amie offered to give me the shot if I wanted. I think just knowing this in the back of my mind caused me to chicken out. Continue reading

CD16 Follicle Check

This afternoon I had another ultrasound (CD16) to check on my growing follicles, and they still weren’t quite ready! I now have 3 front runners: 16, 16, and 18 (I really wanted 4, but 3 isn’t bad). My RE said it was okay that they were slower to develop this cycle, it won’t have any impact on the success/failure. He’s scheduled our IUI for Monday, February 3rd. Continue reading

CD14 Follicle Check

I had my CD14 follicle check ultrasound this morning. No news, all of my follicles are still too small. My front runners are 14, 13, 12 and 12….and I have several 10’s (they have to be at least 15 to even be viable). So now I have another appointment Wednesday where I’ll have another ultrasound to check on my follicles again. Hopefully they’ll be bigger then, but I’m excited that there are 4 this time that will probably be viable….maybe more! If all goes well Wednesday I’ll probably be told to administer my HCG shot Wednesday night, then they’ll schedule the IUI for Friday morning. Fingers crossed that my follicles continue to grow over the next few days 🙂

Clomid headaches

headacheToday will be my 4th day on Clomid for this cycle, I’ve taken 3 doses so far (I take my pills/vitamins at night). Last night I started to get the worst headache, almost migraine…..and today it’s worse. I forgot how terrible the headaches were last Clomid cycle! DAMN YOU CLOMID! Continue reading

Post-op appointment

This morning I had my post-op appointment. Everything went fine, RE said my wounds are healing up just as they should be.

To back track a bit, the pain after the operation was more than I imagined it to be. The pain was mainly in my lower abdomen, I think from where the instruments had been inside of my body moving around…..just felt very sore there. I used ice the first day, then had R pick up a heating pad to use going forward. Continue reading