Holy follicles Batman!!

CD12I’m CD12 today and had an ultrasound this morning to check on my follicles. I have been feeling a little sore, and bloated lately….but this morning as soon as the ultrasound wand went in I could feel just how sore I really was. My cervix hurt so badly, it’s never been this sensitive before. Then I found out why…..I currently have 19 follicles, about 7-9 of them are almost mature enough for the IUI. SEVEN to NINE FOLLICLES, I kind of had a moment when they told me the number. I expected more this time since I was doing double the hMG dose as before, but not THIS MANY MORE.  Continue reading

Infertility sisters

photo“Infertility sisters” was not a term I was familiar with when I started TTC. And why would it be? We all assume that within a few months after we start TTC (a year at max) we’ll be pregnant, 9 months later we’ll have our baby, and that will be that. Once you pass that 12 month mark things change. The world of infertility can be very isolating. Our “fertile” friends and family are supportive, but they don’t get it 100%, and why would they? I wouldn’t get it if I wasn’t going through it myself. It’s a whole world I didn’t even know existed until I realized I was a part of it. This blog has helped me to connect with so many women going through similar situations, and it’s been a wonderful community. I have several women who I now consider “infertility sisters”. I’ve never met most of these women in “real life”, but we just get each other…..and I’m so glad to have them in my life. Continue reading

Time is such a funny thing

It’s so “funny” how quickly the time passes during the first 2 weeks of your cycle, but once you pass ovulation and you enter the 2WW it just drags on. I can’t believe today is CD7 for me, which means I’ll take my last dose of Clomid tonight and start my injections!

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The anxiety is starting to set in

This is my second injectable IUI, and the injections just really freak me out. I know they don’t hurt, but there’s just something about jabbing yourself in the thigh with a 1 1/2 inch needle that just seems unnatural. I had a friend help me with my last round of shots, and I will again this time. For whatever reason, even knowing that I have someone that will help me with the shots I’m still starting to freak out. I just go over it in my head over and over again and stress myself out, unnecessarily. I realize it’s not rational, and I’ve tried to tame the anxiety….but I’m having a tough time because my injections start tomorrow. Continue reading

Here we go

It’s almost like AF heard me talking about her yesterday because she showed up with a vengeance this morning! I woke up early this morning to pee, and had the most full feeling in my lower abdomen. After I peed I still felt so much pressure, and realized AF was here. I took some Advil after breakfast, and that has helped with the cramps a lot. It does make it really easy for keeping up with my CD’s though since I started on August 1st.

I went in to see my RE this morning. My clearing ultrasound went great, no issues whatsoever. He was pleased to see my lining back to “normal” after my chemical pregnancy in May. Continue reading

Any day now

Today is CD33, so any day now AF should be arriving…which will kick off the start of IUI #5. I’m ready to get started, I just wish AF would hurry up!!!

Infertility is such a crazy thing. I’m embarrassed to say this, but silly ol’ me took a cheapie pregnancy test yesterday b/c AF still hadn’t come….

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Nearing the end of our break

ttc-trying-to-conceive-hope-fertility-infertility-e1330223506119We started trying for our first baby in October of 2012, by July of 2013 I was antsy as hell and NEEDED answers RIGHT AWAY about our (in)fertility, because I was starting to think something was wrong with me/him/us. By August of 2013 we had our diagnosis of male factor infertility, and in November of 2013 we started doing IUI’s. Well, four IUI’s and a chemical pregnancy later we decided we just needed a break from it all…so that’s just what we did.

If you had told me this time last year that by now I would need a “break” from TTC, I would have said you were crazy and that I would never take a break until I had my baby, but that’s exactly what we decided to do after our miscarriage in May. Continue reading

Time to order more meds!

IVFmeds Order

Jeez, is it already time to order my meds for my August IUI??? Well, just to be on the safe side, to make sure they arrive on time (since they’re coming from Europe) it’s already that time again!! Just ordered 16 units of hMG (generic of Repronex) for IUI#5, hopefully MY LAST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Continue reading

How am I?

I’m actually doing pretty good.

After finding out about our chemical pregnancy I was pretty devastated (we both were). I had allowed myself to get excited and be happy for a few days then before I knew it everything had ended, but I’m doing much better now. I’m also starting to feel much better now that my anti-depressants are starting to do their job, and I don’t feel a bit guilty about taking a Xanax at night sometimes if I feel I need one. Continue reading

Taking a break

blog-3I had my IUI #4 follow up appointment with my RE today, and it was very productive. I told him about our plans to take the summer off, and he said that sounded like a great plan. He agreed that sometimes you just need a mental break, and it may be just what we need. Continue reading