Methotrexate for ectopic pregnancy — my experience

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I know I’ve been updating you throughout my ectopic pregnancy but I’ve decided to write a summary blog post about my methotrexate experience as a reference for anyone who might be going through a similar experience now or in the future. When I was going through my ectopic I found a few blogs that were very helpful, so I wanted to share my experience too.

I found out on August 28th (12dpiui) that I was pregnant for the second time (my first pregnancy was a chemical pregnancy). Although my HCG was very low I was highly optimistic that I had a late implanter and that everything would be okay. Over the next two weeks I continued to have regular blood draws and my HCG was appropriately doubling every 48 hours, although when looking at Beta charts online my numbers still seemed low compared to most healthy pregnancies. I continued to be hopeful and excited for our baby. Continue reading

The neverending story

image194-this-gritty-concept-art-is-everything-i-want-from-a-neverending-story-remakeI had another blood draw this past Monday, THIRTEEN WEEKS after my first dose of methotrexate for my ectopic pregnancy….and the result was 8. My HCG is still 8, after all this time. My RE doesn’t seem concerned about it, and just asked that I retest in another 2 months, but JEEZ!!!!!!!!!! Continue reading

9 weeks post methotrexate

imageFor the past few weeks I’ve been down to just once a week blood draws….last Monday my HCG was 20, and this Monday it was 21….which was a problem. My levels should be going down not staying the same, and definitely not going up. My RE scheduled another appointment with me this morning to discuss and do more testing.

He told me that sometimes in these cases your body can build up antibodies to the HCG and will show that you still have it in  your blood stream even when you really don’t. He said the way they can test this would be to do another HCG….and split the sample into 2 vials. Test 1 sample regularly, and test the other by adding equal parts water to dilute the sample by 50%…..if I still had HCG in my system the levels today should have been 20 & 10, but if it was just the antibodies my levels would be 20 & 20. Sounds confusing right?? Well it sure confused me too. Continue reading

Extended break

danishstudyInfertile couples are three times more likely to divorce. Pretty crazy statistic huh? Well, I definitely see how that could happen. Infertility has put such a strain on our marriage these past two years…we’ve been through so much with all of the ups & downs and highs & lows. We just need a break from it all.

At this point we’ve decided to take a 1 year hiatus from all things TTC/infertility.
We need to focus on our marriage and getting back to our “happy place”. The fortunate part is that I am only 28 years young, so my biological clock isn’t ticking too loudly just yet. Continue reading

Checking in

IMG_8248Sorry it’s been so long since I have updated, I didn’t mean to neglect my blog or you guys. I’ve still been reading all of your blogs, but just haven’t had it in me to update lately.

Things have been really rough these past few weeks. Continue reading

Dose #2

ready to get back to normalYesterday I went into the ER (the only place that can administer the drug in my area) for 2 more shots of Methotrexate (the dose is divided into 2 shots), one in each butt cheek. The shots didn’t hurt this time. Maybe I had a more skilled nurse, or maybe I’m just so used to being poked and prodded over these last few weeks it didn’t phase me as much. I even went into work after I was finished this time. I did skip class last night though, in addition to the MTHX I have a cold right now (my 2nd since my first dose of MTHX) and I just felt so worn out. MTHX really does a number on your immune system (since it basically kills tons of cells, even the good ones), plus you’re not allowed to take any vitamins until your HCG returns to 0. When I got home from work I changed into my sweats and got into bed. I fell asleep at 6:30 pm and didn’t wake until 7:00 am this morning. TGIF today for sure. I can’t wait to lay in the bed all weekend. Continue reading

Methotrexate round 2 coming right up

IMG_8160They’ve been monitoring my HCG levels closely over the last few weeks after my first dose of Methotrexate for my ectopic pregnancy on September 15th (I’ve literally had 2-3 blood draw’s per week for the past 9 weeks). My levels have been dropping slowly, but dropping steadily so there wasn’t a problem until now. Well, it seems I’ve hit a plateau. Monday’s HCG level was 255 and today’s level was 224…..so my RE thinks it’s time to go ahead with another round of Methotrexate.

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Maintaining your Marriage after a Miscarriage

I found this blog post today (a guest blog post on In All You Do written by Lindsey Bell). I got a lot from the post, and wanted to share for those of you who might be working through a similar situation. Lindsey gave 5 really great tips (I’ve shared my favorite below) of how to maintain your marriage after a miscarriage…..I know I’m struggling right now, and I think there is a lot of truth to the tips she gave.  Continue reading

My heart is literally hurting

I had another check-up today, they took more blood (my poor arms) and did another ultrasound. My HCG is finally dropping like it should (it was 513 today), so it looks like I will be able to avoid another methotraxate shot or any type of surgery…..excellent news. Also, my ultrasound was perfect, but when my RE told me we were just about through this and we were going to take a month off then finally get me pregnant again I burst into tears. I didn’t have the heart to mention anything to him today about us quitting, and there’s really no point at this time anyway because I hope and pray that my husband changes his mind. I just said thank you and left his office crying all the way to my car. It literally makes my heart hurt at the thought of not trying again…..I just feel like we are SO CLOSE!!!!!!!!! I have to go back in for more blood work on Thursday.

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Overwhelming love & support

I’ve lost count of the number of cards and gifts I’ve received after learning about my ectopic pregnancy, but I’m just so appreciative….thank you so much, they all have meant so much to me! The overwhelming love and support has been so incredible, and I couldn’t be more thankful to have such a supportive network of friends and family.

My college roommate and good friend MK sent me this beautiful rose quartz necklace from Israel. Emotionally, rose quartz is used to balance emotions and bring peace and calm. This calm emotional balance brings stress relief and easing of anxiety. All these things carry energies of forgiveness, tolerance, and compassion to the force, enabling us to see the good in both ourselves and others. I look forward to wearing it, because of it’s meaning, because of how beautiful it is, and because of the person who gave it to me. We’re not that close (distance wise) anymore, but she still remains one of my very best friends…and is always there for me when I need her. Thank you MK! I love you.
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