The anxiety is starting to set in

This is my second injectable IUI, and the injections just really freak me out. I know they don’t hurt, but there’s just something about jabbing yourself in the thigh with a 1 1/2 inch needle that just seems unnatural. I had a friend help me with my last round of shots, and I will again this time. For whatever reason, even knowing that I have someone that will help me with the shots I’m still starting to freak out. I just go over it in my head over and over again and stress myself out, unnecessarily. I realize it’s not rational, and I’ve tried to tame the anxiety….but I’m having a tough time because my injections start tomorrow. Continue reading

Here we go

It’s almost like AF heard me talking about her yesterday because she showed up with a vengeance this morning! I woke up early this morning to pee, and had the most full feeling in my lower abdomen. After I peed I still felt so much pressure, and realized AF was here. I took some Advil after breakfast, and that has helped with the cramps a lot. It does make it really easy for keeping up with my CD’s though since I started on August 1st.

I went in to see my RE this morning. My clearing ultrasound went great, no issues whatsoever. He was pleased to see my lining back to “normal” after my chemical pregnancy in May. Continue reading

Nearing the end of our break

ttc-trying-to-conceive-hope-fertility-infertility-e1330223506119We started trying for our first baby in October of 2012, by July of 2013 I was antsy as hell and NEEDED answers RIGHT AWAY about our (in)fertility, because I was starting to think something was wrong with me/him/us. By August of 2013 we had our diagnosis of male factor infertility, and in November of 2013 we started doing IUI’s. Well, four IUI’s and a chemical pregnancy later we decided we just needed a break from it all…so that’s just what we did.

If you had told me this time last year that by now I would need a “break” from TTC, I would have said you were crazy and that I would never take a break until I had my baby, but that’s exactly what we decided to do after our miscarriage in May. Continue reading

Answers….sort of

0_263_393_http---offlinehbpl.hbpl.co.uk-news-2MM-Amitiza-lubiprostone-chronic-idiopathic-constipation-chloride-channel-activator-diet-bowel-movement-201310220401137So after this mornings weigh-in I was beyond frustrated, I was PISSED! I called my family doctor to make an appointment and they said they could squeeze me in this afternoon. First I told the doctor about my constipation/stomach issues, then I told her about my weight loss (or lack there of) journey and how frustrated I was! She asked me a million questions, felt around on my stomach and back….then told me that she wanted me to try a prescription called Amitiza for my bowels. It’s prescribed for IBS with constipation (SEE I KNEW I HAD IBS!!!).

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Taking a break

blog-3I had my IUI #4 follow up appointment with my RE today, and it was very productive. I told him about our plans to take the summer off, and he said that sounded like a great plan. He agreed that sometimes you just need a mental break, and it may be just what we need. Continue reading