The neverending story

image194-this-gritty-concept-art-is-everything-i-want-from-a-neverending-story-remakeI had another blood draw this past Monday, THIRTEEN WEEKS after my first dose of methotrexate for my ectopic pregnancy….and the result was 8. My HCG is still 8, after all this time. My RE doesn’t seem concerned about it, and just asked that I retest in another 2 months, but JEEZ!!!!!!!!!! Continue reading

what to say when someone loses a child

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Wonderful blog post: “What to say when someone loses a child”

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It takes bravery to enter into another person’s mess.

It does. I know. Unfortunately, the mess is normally mine (and mine to keep), and it’s the brave souls that God has blessed me with in my life that are the commendable ones.

And the bravery I have seen from them over the last seven months, especially in the last month… it’s something special.

I’m going to say it flat out… A year ago, I would not have known the first thing to say to someone who lost a child.

I would go through all of the typical responses I had heard over the years in an effort to counsel them or give them advice. I would probably say a lot of things wrong. I hope I would at least say something, but maybe I would have avoided the situation all together. I honestly don’t know, and I don’t envy the…

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9 weeks post methotrexate

imageFor the past few weeks I’ve been down to just once a week blood draws….last Monday my HCG was 20, and this Monday it was 21….which was a problem. My levels should be going down not staying the same, and definitely not going up. My RE scheduled another appointment with me this morning to discuss and do more testing.

He told me that sometimes in these cases your body can build up antibodies to the HCG and will show that you still have it in  your blood stream even when you really don’t. He said the way they can test this would be to do another HCG….and split the sample into 2 vials. Test 1 sample regularly, and test the other by adding equal parts water to dilute the sample by 50%…..if I still had HCG in my system the levels today should have been 20 & 10, but if it was just the antibodies my levels would be 20 & 20. Sounds confusing right?? Well it sure confused me too. Continue reading

Extended break

danishstudyInfertile couples are three times more likely to divorce. Pretty crazy statistic huh? Well, I definitely see how that could happen. Infertility has put such a strain on our marriage these past two years…we’ve been through so much with all of the ups & downs and highs & lows. We just need a break from it all.

At this point we’ve decided to take a 1 year hiatus from all things TTC/infertility.
We need to focus on our marriage and getting back to our “happy place”. The fortunate part is that I am only 28 years young, so my biological clock isn’t ticking too loudly just yet. Continue reading

Update on Kristy

infertilitywhyme:

Kristy 6.5 weeks pregnantAs of today Unfertile Mertyle has raised $14,465 for Kristy through her online fundraiser….which is just beyond incredible. Kristy has continued to post videos about her pregnancy and she seems to be in better spirits about the pregnancy. It’s her little piece of Royce, just such a miracle. Please continue to pray for Kristy and her baby….they’ve got a long hard road ahead of them.

If you haven’t donated yet, but would like to click on this link.

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RIP RoyceOne of the YouTube vloggers I follow, Kristy from ConceiveABaby, just suffered a horrible tragedy. She and her husband Royce had been TTC for nearly 5 years. They recently went through their first IVF cycle and were in their 2WW when Royce passed away suddenly in a car accident.

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DIY Minky Satin Trimmed Baby Blanket

I love craftingI had been wanting to make my newest niece (born in June) a baby blanket for sometime now and have a girlfriend who is currently pregnant with her second baby boy…..so I decided to finally get started. Crafting really helps me keep my mind off of things, and keeps me busy.

There are so many cute choices on Etsy for similar blankets, but I just couldn’t find the exact fabric that I wanted….plus I really liked the idea of them being handmade (by me).

You’re really not saving any/much money or time by making it yourself (each of mine cost $20-25 for the materials, and took around 2 hours to make), but it is a fun/relatively easy project and will make a great gift! I found a great tutorial online which I followed step-by-step, except for the fabric choices. The tutorial was excellent, and I highly recommend it to anyone wanting to make a blanket similar to the ones I made.

baby girl blanket

baby boy blanket

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Checking in

IMG_8248Sorry it’s been so long since I have updated, I didn’t mean to neglect my blog or you guys. I’ve still been reading all of your blogs, but just haven’t had it in me to update lately.

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The saddest story I’ve ever heard

RIP RoyceOne of the YouTube vloggers I follow, Kristy from ConceiveABaby, just suffered a horrible tragedy. She and her husband Royce had been TTC for nearly 5 years. They recently went through their first IVF cycle and were in their 2WW when Royce passed away suddenly in a car accident. Continue reading

Dose #2

ready to get back to normalYesterday I went into the ER (the only place that can administer the drug in my area) for 2 more shots of Methotrexate (the dose is divided into 2 shots), one in each butt cheek. The shots didn’t hurt this time. Maybe I had a more skilled nurse, or maybe I’m just so used to being poked and prodded over these last few weeks it didn’t phase me as much. I even went into work after I was finished this time. I did skip class last night though, in addition to the MTHX I have a cold right now (my 2nd since my first dose of MTHX) and I just felt so worn out. MTHX really does a number on your immune system (since it basically kills tons of cells, even the good ones), plus you’re not allowed to take any vitamins until your HCG returns to 0. When I got home from work I changed into my sweats and got into bed. I fell asleep at 6:30 pm and didn’t wake until 7:00 am this morning. TGIF today for sure. I can’t wait to lay in the bed all weekend. Continue reading

Methotrexate round 2 coming right up

IMG_8160They’ve been monitoring my HCG levels closely over the last few weeks after my first dose of Methotrexate for my ectopic pregnancy on September 15th (I’ve literally had 2-3 blood draw’s per week for the past 9 weeks). My levels have been dropping slowly, but dropping steadily so there wasn’t a problem until now. Well, it seems I’ve hit a plateau. Monday’s HCG level was 255 and today’s level was 224…..so my RE thinks it’s time to go ahead with another round of Methotrexate.

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